Today,my heart feels heavy...
Today, My Heart Feels Heavy Today, my heart feels heavy. Not shattered just worn. As though it has been carrying something for far too long and has forgotten how to lay it down. There is a quiet heat in my breathing, each inhale pressing against a weight no one else can see. My eyes stay full. They always do. But I hold the tears back— because I know once they fall, I may not know how to stop. I try. I truly try to be happy. I look for reasons— in work, in routine, in familiar faces. But nothing stays bright long enough to mean anything. It feels like I’ve lost something without ever knowing what it was. I understand why I’m alive responsibilities, people, time moving forward. But joy… joy no longer answers when I call. And I don’t have the strength to go searching for it. With friends, something softens. I laugh. I forget. For a moment, I almost feel normal. Then the moment passes. And what follows is silence a long, hollow quiet where even my thoughts grow still. That’s when it’s j...
